1. |
Help Forget
02:45
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Help Forget
i lay awake
hoping that i can be something better tomorrow
and not just wasted, like the days have lately
been consuming my mind,
with a whole lot of self doubt,
questioning all the time, but how can we all
finally just be ourselves, and not live up to any fucking expectations again.
i could never follow something that i don't believe in
but my tunnel visions rerouting me to the end
wake me up,
from the dead
help me forget
how cold this system is
cuz it feels like ive never had a chance to live
refrained from a life that i'll never get
its all a shame
we gotta throw away our futures
and become another pawn in the game
but i refuse to be owned by the state
gunna rize above this class war controlling my fate
sick of it all, end the years of the abuse to my liver and soul
i know thats not an excuse. but im falling apart.
hanging on my rebellious heart
looking for a new revolution to start.
how do you blindly follow everything you see and read
poisoned by the sky and everything you choose to eat
we're dumbed down and neglected all dying every second
where the fuck is humanity/
wake me up,
from the dead
help me forget
how cold this system is
cuz it feels like ive never had a chance to live
refrained from a life that i'll never get
find yourself
free the mind
take control and destroy
all who infringe your rights/
it feels like nothings ever been on our side
except for the millions of us trying to survive
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2. |
This Misery
01:39
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This Misery
the days too short,
and im late again
an hour of sleep and a summons to pay
im becoming a mess,
and nothing is feeling right, im losing my head.
pale,
i aint seen the sun in weeks,
my two cats are the only beings to whom i speak
introvert, im a loner whos hoping for nothing but better
cuz their whole agenda leaves you no control
withdrawn from everyone,
an unhealthy soul that's beginning to rot out
when everything's not what i thought it was
its hard to change when i feel so fucking lost
im living life way too goddamn depressed.
lost faith in everything
My fates in need of change
so far my life's meant nothing,
its being washed right down the drain
i stopped believing theres a reason
cuz everydays the fucking same
i've been feeling stressed out
this 20 bucks won't even last a week
i've been on repeat, and learning nothing
to keep me from being quarantined.
and i want you to know
that i cant love you anymore.
i don't wanna crash together
down the road im headed
i'll explain it better when i find something to fall for.
when everything's not what i thought it was
its hard to change when i feel so fucking lost
as long as we can come to understanding one another
i'll change my reservations to leave this misery
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3. |
Bits
04:03
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Bits
i drink way too much
and say all the wrong things
nothing seems to ever change
the more i try the more i fail
stay up all night
lose sight and mind of everything
disconnected, its bliss
til you wake up under their reign.
between you and me,
im done and going for broke
leave past mistakes behind
and hope theres nothing else that i owe
will this darkness consume
another life with open doors?
i was told the future is bright
so where the fuck is the light
i have to get the hell outta dodge,
and find a place to rewire my mind
leave the past and build a new future.
im trying to let go and put it all behind.
i missed another call that i saw.
cuz every times just an excuse
to melt away far from the truth
grew distant from a friend,
i'll never hear from him again
the years passed quietly in vain,
until he intentionally od'd in his bed
and i'm Just sick and tired, of having no fucking motive.
80 proof intakes not enough to cope with the bullshit
how can we escape ourselves and think
when our lives are controlled?
this whole systems built on promises
fabricated just to destroy.
i have to get the hell outta dodge,
and find a place to rewire my mind
leave the past and build a new future.
im trying to let go and put it all behind.
a search for new vision, in a plot to collapse
a start of new hope, building something that lasts
but im falling apart, trying to clean myself up
escaping it all, when im failing to love.
push hard to leave
this fucking dead end state
my nihilistic tempers at the end of its leash
move forward and quit procrastinating,
that same routine i was stuck in everyday
just wasn't working out for me.
its so hard to think
when you've been so fucked up
stuck in the same goddamn rotating episode
this whole worlds a shit show
too proud of its hate
where's the love of everything?
where's the love that i need?
just one more drink,
and then im back to where i was,
self loathing and lonely pissed off at the whole world.
nothing to live for but to sleep forever
hoping you'd just wake me up
when the days seem better
i have to get the hell outta dodge,
and find a place to rewire my mind
leave the past and build a new future.
im trying to let go and put it all behind.
im just becoming nothing, in this barren city
controlling well-being, im losing sleep and unhealthy.
afraid of the sun, and people make me uneasy,
ignoring my phone whenever it would ring.
a search for new vision, in a plot to collapse
a start of new hope, building something that lasts
but im falling apart, trying to clean myself up
escaping my jobs, to fucking end it all
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4. |
DTI
02:22
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DTI
i took the G to the A. packed with the villians i hate,
im the what percent of that percent that doesnt relate.
ive grown attached to rebellion since the day i remember.
gotta blow steam off the embers just to cool down my temper.
im bored now, and tired. i've been looking way higher.
to overcome these end of days but Love won't fill my desires.
i should shut up and pray, but im gonna dig for an answer.
even if i have to perish in the flames of disaster.
I took a cue from my brothers to get the hell outta dodge
a better set up at home, but my hearts thick in the fog.
i know i dont want a phone or machine, or you calling me.
i wanna stay gone, and witness you all suffer from this disease.
scrap the digital cameras and then put seeds in your planters.
create something more hopeful than what i read on yer wall.
i've got a fond thing for a natural human bonding.
but this other form of mankind is nothing i would buy into.
I pride myself in defying the system til the day that i die.
closed minds will just follow all the rats without two open eyes.
whats good for me, is not for you, or most humans too.
too blind, to see what else is out there than on channel 2.
i thought i'd fuck the police but i'd rather fuck the feds.
im just sick of living dead, and right now i feel headless,
brain stems stringed up, detained. im just trying to keep sane.
i think we'd all like to hold on to our own reigns.
cursed,
i know a few people that i'll never trust again.
losing friends to this game, is no way friendships should end.
but then again, what matters, is how you keep yourself in check.
id cover up your heads when cops think that they shoot to protect.
fuck paying your rent scheme, my credit is complete shit.
this whole fuckin system can suck my fat fucking dick.
now that the ties been unknotted, and the strings are all cut.
im taking a personal day off from the world that you...fucked .
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5. |
It's Never As It Seems
02:59
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It's Never As It Seems
i got enough of this bottle of gin,
to last the rest of my day alone
and i thought of who i wanna stay in touch with
and who id rather forget was born.
contemplating the years ahead,
i was just thinking what a friend once said,
'what the fuck you gonna do when im gone'
its been about two years now, and not much has changed
ill always think about the times we spent,
and the amount of useless shit we'd talk about
and truthfully all of my beliefs are still the same.
im not just swayed by any fucking preacher's son,
i count the days down til my time is done.
Its hard to think about years from now
when the whole world comes crashing down
it just seems everything's over.
theres no hope for change
theres no time to dig us out.
I'm a mess, but im a lover and a fool,
who'll never ask for any help cuz im just shitty to myself.
and i don't knooooow what the future holds,
but i bet that i will still be broke
and hoping theres a fire to end this fucking cold.
(god damn its cold)
its almost worth it when you're by my side
and watch me self destruct and lose my mind,
turn back the time and tell me that im not alone.
i don't believe in much, but i believe in us
so lets dig ourselves out of the rubble
and turn around together and watch the world burn.
fuck the future they burned our dreams,
i'm out of touch with this dying scene
it just seems everything's over.
theres no hope for change
theres no hope for us today
stop the hate, we need unity,
how the fucks a war gonna help us be one?
the truth hides deep below reality
and this hope of freedom is never what it seems.
im out of step loving this world
thats when i know i drank enough,
my sober thoughts are pessimistic
try and try and stand me up.
when you were down and out
and asked me for help
i did nothing
i did nothing.
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6. |
Naps
02:29
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Naps
i want you to know
i'm sorry there was no connection
between you and me
our principles are far too different,
you like the structure of cops
and i believe in anarchy
some things aren't meant to be.
but whos to say whats a more fulfilling life
sure i could use a lot more,
but nothing more to survive.
i enjoy living day to day
and in the end my friends are all i need.
i got no plans yet for what lies ahead,
i keep putting my reality on hold instead.
saving last weeks paper
just in case i might read it.
its a cyclical mess that never cleans up.
years from now i'll be back to square one
drunk and broke with no future no hopes
and no reason to become something better
im just stitched to this fucking chair
agoraphobic, my soul is beyond disrepair.
im a fan of the silence but loneliness is overrated
and the sun burns hotter everyday
i use to blame everyone else,
but now im just the one who doesn't believe in myself
so maybe i should warn you now
before my cynicism summons a cloud
of my problems, self loathing, and doubt.
and i'm the hypocrite for judging your faith
when you could be the only one out there to save me.
well i can't tell
why we try to understand each other,
before we understand ourselves
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7. |
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Internal Struggles Of Rebellion
i got nothing else to set on fire except myself,
this meaningless shits an endless cycle
of work, sleep, pay your bills, no sleep
and it seems like the further i wander
im lost searching in hell from under
wondering what's insanity
how the hell did we just destroy humanity
when everything is gone
theres no one else to blame but us
why destroy everything we love
and leave it all behind?
theres nothing to save us all.
all forgotten in no time
if the wrong people
control our lives to watch us die.
i've been blaming them my whole life
but now im looking at myself
i know im not whats fucking wrong.
their system's built to mimic hell.
we need to quit believing all their bullshit
they feed us to make a change
but its not gonna change
until we drop our prima donna shit,
the 'im too good to protest this'.
you're one more arm to throw a brick
and destroy this fucking republican
convention. til i lose all my attention
cuz my a.d.d just kicked in,
what the fuck was i thinking?
i'll just drink 40 ounces to freedom
when everything is gone
theres no one else to blame but us
why destroy everything we love
and leave it all behind?
theres nothing to save us all.
all forgotten in no time
if the wrong people
control our lives to watch us die.
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8. |
Set Fire Set Us Free
02:49
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Set Fire Set Us Free
so the front page read it was a beautiful day
to cover up everything wrong with this world
its unreal that my nihilistic dreams
and the waves of the future are coming true
into a meaningless state,
cuz we're all losing hope.
and no one bothers to change,
so stop praying to a non existent being
try to believe in yourself
and find a way to overcome all this hell
exhume remains of your former shell
and try to rebuild.
cuz nothings the same
it seems nothing can change
we're all trying our best to understand our mistakes
its hard enough for me to fucking think
held hostage under tyranny
well my friend,
just know that you're not alone
i chose to live because its awesome to breathe
but i don't see a reason to continue this identity.
forced to believe that war would solve everything,
and at the bell's tone we'd all surrender ourselves to the king.
fucking pigs, glorified beholders of violence
don't shoot, im just protesting in silence,
i dont ever want this shit weighing me down,
controlling my mind, im hoping in the end that we'll all be fine.
theres some moments that i feel a little glimpse of hope
but most people are in doubt that theyre out of control
if you and i stick together we're gold,
an unstoppable force to break open the doors.
set the king and cops on fire
set the reigns of death on fire
set the city of hell on fire
then set world and me on fire
cuz nothings the same
it seems nothing can change
we're all trying our best to understand our mistakes
its hard enough for me to fucking think
held hostage under tyranny
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9. |
Week End Plans
01:41
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Week End Plans
I've got big plans again,
of doing absolutely nothing this weekend
im putting the whole world on hold
to sleep in late and nap all day!
and i don't give a fuck whats going on,
my phones off, no calls, no sight of the sun
alienated holiday, i can finally breath
and just be free.
i just need some time,
to get away from everyone
these days its hard to find a place to hide
if i don't i'll lose my mind
im sorry, goodbye
i love this fucking part of my life
i've got big plans of dreams ahead
don't wake me up this is the end
and once i resurrect,
maybe i won't just give up again.
i could pretend and believe in that shit.
but i know ill just devolve back into the abyss.
freedom, acts like a bastard
why the fuck can't we all just have it
Im losing touch with my whole family
all because id rather sleep in this saturday
i just need some time,
to get away from everyone
these days its hard to find a place to hide
if i don't i'll lose my mind
im sorry, goodbye
i love this fucking part of my life
i've got big plans of dreams ahead
don't wake me up this is the end
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10. |
Keep Breathing
01:43
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Keep Breathing
how the hell did we all end up with no freedom?
hopes all lost in a life with no reason.
brainwashed all your thoughts to be changed
and dumbed down to easily be enslaved
gotta find a way to find a love before i die
why the fuck do we all follow their petty lies
I'm close to the end but not done yet
but im losing control of every fucking part of me.
can't breath, can't speak
can't think, can't dream
i would rather die than give in
to their design and become a mindless robot
programmed to abstain from free thought
poisoned the tap to put us all in a trance
i'd love to dream and see better days for you and me
so why believe what they say?
fuck this system, break down the gates.
and just go your own way,
just go your own way.
stop and think, before you're doomed
all it takes is a first step from you
they tell us we'll amount to nothing
and everythings been planned for us all.
its my turn to be anything that i fucking want.
and i wanna bring you along.
escape the madness, free your mind
there's no reason to live a life
controlled by some fucking tyrant
so don't listen when they tell you...
don't breath, don't speak
don't think, don't dream
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11. |
Thanks Friends!
03:29
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Thanks Friends
without you around i don't feel like myself,
lost in distress no one here left to help.
and when i'm heading straight for the ledge,
you put sense in my head,
where would i be with out my friends?
walk along and tell me everything,
the future is dead so lets just live for today.
theres too much to see and to do,
when we play by the rules,
lets break free from this insanity
it seems the whole worlds against us both
trying to tear us apart so we would lose control
theres enough hope to keep us afloat
with how everythings going im surprised that im not alone.
every year a few friends less
everyday another chance to escape death.
i look up to my brothers who beat their rock bottom,
where the fuck would we be without our friends?
where the fuck would we be without our friends?
we can all move past our faults,
but we can't do it on our own
sometimes life just feels lost
and we'd rather just die all alone
but lately i've been thinking clearly,
understanding my mind and my soul.
thanks to all my friends who helped me believe
that im better than i thought i was
how do we progress our lives
when theres people out there trying hard to suppress our minds
you always taught me its kind to respect one another,
but when someone's a threat, where do we draw the line?
ive seen too much hate,
too much for me, but around you i feel at ease.
and at peace.
and i wish, i fucking wish it was just you and i.
where the fuck would we be without our friends?
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12. |
Finally, Done
04:58
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Finally, Done
shaken up by this world of hate
losing faith in us a little more these days
these politicians thrive on all your pain
its a shame we can't change til its far too late
step out of bounds and go find yourself,
it feels a lot like surviving in hell.
but i can't give up on humanity
when theres war in your mind called insanity
love life all day til i forget who i am
And another sad loss too soon of a friend,
drank a fifth to myself and i got a little buzz,
ended passed out and lost any feeling of love.
wake up with pain and the shakes everyday.
why did i do this to myself again,
i hate to be the pessimistic human being
but whats it all worth when there is nothing left to believe
for a moment tho, ill get so drunk
that it all seems ok, deep down i know
this world is hardly worth living for
I'm always changing every day,
feeling lost, and out of place.
i plan to exit all alone into an all inclusive dead existence
dig me out of this cloud of angst
im the only one around whos left here to hate.
while friends move onward i still remain
a stubborn kid, as the years pass by like days,
it seems the gods have forsaken me
floating up to a spirtitual awakening,
then coming down like i've lost the whole meaning of life
pretending nothing is wrong but im losing the fight
tried to clean up from every vice that i love.
But The feeling is numbed from all the confusion
with all hope lost theres no love and no trust.
i wish id known what was better for us.
i keep fucking up, down a spiral path
Any real connection that I have don't last
i just need to bring in some light.
and finally meet a few friends before i dematerialize.
when everything seems inconvenient
and the whole worlds against you breathing,
can't even live decent
or make any fucking wages worth saving
just hating what you'll become if you stay,
another rotting sheep in a cage
just fucking leave.
live free,
it doesn't matter what other fucking people think
we're broken down and judged
all based on nothing but the cover
it may take a lifetime or two to truly find who you are inside
thats the game of life, a struggle to survive
fuck tomorrow, live for today.
be the human being you're supposed to be
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13. |
GLS
01:18
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GLS
I've got a friend who doesnt seem to see the value in honesty
especially between friends
this makes wonder, why is he my friend,
is it because there is no one else around?
when your friends don't give a fuck
its enough to make you give up.
when your friends don't give a fuck
its enough to make you give up.
Well my friend doesn't give a fuck, so i gave up on him
I thought a friendship was supposed to be about respect and trust
well we don't have either one
i don't trust you, and you don't re spect me,
enough to tell me the truth
when your friends don't give a fuck
its enough to make you give up.
when your friends don't give a fuck
its enough to make you give up.
Well my friend doesn't give a fuck, so i gave up on him
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